Just a reminder for my LJ friends. http://flipflopmama.wordpress.com/

Oooh....LJ has a application for palm phones. I like my wordpress journal but this is much more simple on my phone!

stollen idea from libragirl_77

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 56.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next seven sentences in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

"Sit down. I'm going to get you a drink and then you can tell me what happened. Exactly what happened."
The fight drained out of her. "You're crazy," she said, but she sat on the couch.
He got out a couple of glasses, figuring he needed fortification, too. "Bourbon okay?"
"I don't care."

Somewhere in Texas by Eve Grady

I know I don't normally post here but this site is easy to visit from my cell. I will probably use both until I get at home internet.

Summer is almost gone. Thank goodness. I have costumes for halloween. I am having Thanksgiving here. Chris's brother, gf and baby are coming for sure. My sis her hubby and 5 kids (soon to be 6) are invited. So is my mom. My dad and stepmom are invited. I think Chris will invite his sis and bil too. I don't have enough seating but we got time to find freebies, thrift store or borrow/rent.

Driving to LV would be easier and probably cheaper but I am not up for a roadtrip yet. I know 6 hours is not 6 days. lol

I am back home. Well, home as NV anyways. It was a hellish drive. My car did not behave at all! Had to stop in KC to get it serviced at the dealership. Took 6.5 days, should of only taken us 4.5. I am "borrowing" a neighbors internet connection so this won't be long but I wanted to say "hi" and I made it. My cell doesn't work here, so as soon as I can get $ to switch providers I will be in contact again. I can use my parents internet but since they smoke in their house, I limit my time there. Grif's asthma is acting up with the climate change and smoke doesn't help. No job yet, but hope that will change ina moments notice. Waiting on unemployment check. Applied for help in NV as well for food stamps and insurance until money comes in. Got the kids enrolled in school. Riley has started practicing football already. Jack, well, let's say now was not the best time to give up the crib. lol He LOVES having more space and a yard.

Hi friends. I am not ignoring those on my friends list, I am just in the middle of packing to move back across the country. I will probably be a bad friend and not be commenting on your journals until my life gets back on track. I am pretty overwhelmed with my own life right now. This doesn't mean I don't feel your pain, your laughter, your anxiousness, your joy. I do, I just don't have time or resources to comment. I will be limited to internet 1-2 times a week for a while. I will be posting on the other site when I get there and when I have something to report. Just won't be on a regular schedule for awhile. Love you all!

Just a reminder that I am posting at the other place now. See previous post. I just wanted to say IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! xoxoxox

Tagged by my friend Carrie/rdhdprincess, I think it needs to be payback time some how, although I don't pass these things around, lol. The meme is: The instructions:
Hand write the following things:
1. Your name and username
2. Left or Right handed
3. Favorite Letters to write
4. Least Favorite Letters to write
5. Write "The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.”
6. Tag 5 people.

Click on the picture for a larger version of it.

And Carrie, mail me some of the extra pens, I can never ever find a pen in my house!


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This took a LOT of brain power to come up with a list off the top of my head. lol She tagged me to list my top five artists and the top 5 songs I LOVE from them. I am suppose to tag 5, but guess what, just like I don't forward gay sappy emails, not gonna do this either. lol Anyways, I am sure I am leaving someone off this list, but I would be content for a few months with these 25 songs on my MP3 player.

#1 The Church
*Under the Milky Way
*Reptile
*Destination
*North, South, East, West
*Antenna

#2 Pink Floyd
*Hey You
*Money
*Time
*Mother
*Goodbye Cruel World

#3 Led Zepplin
*Stairway to Heaven
*Dazed and Confused
*Whole Lotta Love
*The Song Remains the Same
*All My Love

#4 Pearl Jam
*Evenflow
*Jeremy
*Corduroy
*Better Man
*Alive

#5 Eels
*Novacaine For the Soul
*Susan's House
*My Beloved Monster
*Beautiful Freak
*Going to Your Funeral

Chris ended up having the whole week off. (short week & paid holidays to use up) Been so busy and the house work is suffering. Not sure how the heck I am gonna keep up once I go back to work. I am going to TRY real hard not to do anything today but pick up and clean. I have pork chops dethawing. I want a REAL dinner tonight. Something with vegetables. Other than salsa I can't remember the last veggie I had. That is SAD!

Chris, Ri and Grif and Popa Bob are planning on going to a cheap golf course today (9 holes). It has been raining, have no idea if it will clear in time for their tee time. Not my problem. :) I would like them to go, I could use some down time.

No interviews scheduled. I am feeling pretty defeated. Monday is a new week. Maybe something positive will happen tomorrow. I may go pick up some flowers to practice an arrangement just in case I need to do an audition for the floral job.

I am really hating the sirens these days. It seems they are going down the street more and more. I KNOW I live just a few blocks from the fire station. I live on one of the busiest streets in the county. The expressway is just a 1/2 mile from here....BUT I cringe every freaking time I hear them. (police, fire, ambulance etc) Even if everyone is home, I still tense up. Someone out there is worrying about a loved one. I hope the next place we live isn't SO close to an emergency station.

We thought about going down to Aventura yesterday. I had googled the address and we haven't been to the BIG mall there. (Maimi) I guess it is HUGE, 2nd biggest in FL. Nope, don't know what is #1, I will look that up later. lol I was ready to go when I realized it was Monday, not Sunday (Monday holidays confuse me) and remembered we had soccer practice @ 6:45. It was already 3. Darn it. I really need a new umbrella stroller (mine get a life of about 1.5 years, I use it daily). I decided we had time so we went down to TRU. There is only one here, way in FT Lauderdale, almost Miami. Of course I take the scenic route. :) We find one on clearance, I take the floor model. Jeep brand umbrella stroller, I love my full size Jeep but it doesn't fit in my car trunk. I get a new GB DS game for me {a brain one}, a walk thru guide book for zelda (rofl) and a toy for Jack and Grif with their Valentines money from grandmas.

We go to LJS for dinner. We get to soccer with about 10 minutes to spare. Put Jack in the stroller. Before we get to the game field the stroller wheel falls off! It is BROKEN! Damn it, I have to go back today. We tossed the other one already so I had to chase him around the park all night. He did sleep very well last night. lol I am going to look if BRU carries it, if they do I can return it there instead. Much better option as those 2 locations are only a 1/3 of the distance away. See if I buy a floor model ever again. We even tried it out in the store.

My mood improved yesterday. It helped once Cam went to work and Ri left to hang out with friends. Everyone was calm in the evening when settling in for bed. Thank goodness. I played video games in bed til it was time for some loving. Oh yeah, I colored my hair last night too. I look so much better without all that gray weaving in and out of my hair. I don't know why I don't keep doing it on a regular basis. It is kinda like washing the car. You don't realize how much of an impact it has til you do it!

Someone give me a happy pill and put me in a time out. I am not sure what the heck my problem is but I hate EVERYTHING right now. Everyone is being rotton. They all annoy me to no end. Including the cats and bird. Maybe it is me? Nah, it is them. Grif is being the laziest creature on the face of the earth and refuses to put things away where Jack can't get them. Jack found a blue pencil/crayon and drew all over walls, tables, dressers, doors. Lovely. He has hit the terrible 2's and throws the WORLD's biggest termper tantrums if he doesn't get his way. And boy is he STRONG! I have asked Grif to do a few chores today and it is taking hours to do one thing. He is old enough to put shirts on hangers and put shorts in drawers.

Riley has hit the mood swings. Boys hormones are lovely. Mostly it is anger that comes out and if you call him on it, tears and "woe is me" comes after. I am always picking on him. {which is way off base as I take his side most of the time, he helps me most and is normally the most considerate} Cam "borrowed" his head phones for the ipod and when he called him he said no. But when I got out of the shower, he told me he had them when he went to bed. I called Cameron and told him to return them. {praying I was right} Cam came back home and threw them at him. Both boys are pissed at me now. Um, what the heck did I do??? They haven't had a fight in awhile but still...I am tired of it. I am sure Cam will start talking about moving out soon again. Neither of them are home very often. I made them clean their room today, this is the most they have seen each other since Thursday, maybe an hour together while awake.

I need to get away. I was looking forward to the aquarium. I may be hormonal but I am pretty sure I am still 10 days away. Gotta look into that. Chris is sleeping. He came home in a nasty grumpy mood {too many call offs at work-AGAIN}, played Zelda for an hour and passed out. I am suppose to get him up in 15 minutes so he can enjoy his day off but he may want to let me get back to a sane rational person before he rejoins the living. If he is snappy from lack of sleep, who knows what will come out of my mouth that I might regret.

Talking to ~dawn~ today, I realized I am more than READY to go back to work. My house is a mess now. It can't get any worse. I just ran 3 dishwasher loads today. I will be doing laundry all day. It is 86 out and humidity is about the same. The a/c may be going on or I may just kill someone. I need to get away so I can appreciate everyone again. Right now, they are on my very last nerve and I am too grumpy to even deny it. Not very motherly of me, is it?

Todays trip to the aquarium is a no go. I figured as much 5 days ago when they said rain. Now they say thunderstorms. Can't go see Shamu with lightning. lol Not when it costs 31$ to get in! They are upgrading to year passes for free this month but still. It is last last possible exit before Key Biscayne. Not exactly around the corner. We will go on Sunday instead. They say only 10% chance of rain then. Rain doesn't bother me, we have plenty of ponchos but lightning is a different story.

Chris didn't get home til 6am so he would have to go on no sleep. Not exactly good company. Plus me and the 2 little ones can't stop sneezing. An allergy or a cold? I think today will be spend cleaning. My apt is a disaster zone and it is sucking the life force out of me. I will back on later. Kids want attention.

I had the best dream. Okay not the BEST but any time I dream about Mr Matthew M, it is good. In my dream I was just in love with him. My best friend knew about it. I was so upset when Mr M told her he was in love with her. She had no clue how good he was. He kept showering me with affection, treating me like his best girl (friend, not girlfriend). {when he hugged me from behind and made me promise to be his partner in the basketball game, I nearly died of happiness. I suck at bball btw} I finally told him to step back as I was in love with him and I had to find some flaw in him so I could get over this. Then I woke up. Very strange. Don't tell hubby, okay? He may not appreciate my dream. lol

It is 1982? The reason I ask is that kelly green is EVERYWHERE! I remember having kelly green and pink topsiders. Shoot, I even saw topsiders at the mall. I came REAL close to getting a kelly green/white fern print hobo bag. 2 things stopped me. One, the white. Me and white is just a disaster to happen. 2, the bag didn't have a zipper, or snap or velcro. I would loose all my contents. even if I was careful and always hang it up, JAck would help himself. I hate when he messes up my Palm. lol Ya know what I would really like from that era? I see the quilted bags (I love the line at Halmark, but 100$ for a bag is too pricey for me} and now I want to see the purses that had the wooden handles and buttons that had the removeable/exchangeable covers. I saved all my allowance/baby itting money to get a new cover every few weeks. Now I could sew my own covers. Has anyone seen them in stores? I see similar purses with permenant covers, just nothing that has "outfits". I loved hiding "personal" stuff in btwn the liner and the cover. That way I didn't freak when I guy rumaged thru my purse. I believe this was 7th grade btw, am I aging myself? lol

Yes, I know I am posting a lot for me. None of this is diet related. Nor is it appropriate for my family journal either. I knew I would feel like posting here again and that is why I didn't delete it.

I am not sure what is making me so anxious today. I know I am paying bills on Monday. Hubby and I do it together. Forever is the day that I deal with them on my own. He needs to be aware of how much everything adds up to and how little the paycheck goes towards the total. lol

I have been appling at 4 places minimum a week for ft work. Probably not enough. I reapplied at the Butterfly place today. They either have another position or it didn't work out w/ the person they hired. I polished up my resume and filled out another application. It is all the same info, just packaged a bit different. :) I probably should of waited til Tuesday but I couldn't. I just can't wait. It is like Xmas. I HAVE to find something by mid April or we have to move come June. No if and or butts....

Riley is at the fair, he has been checking in. He has to be in the front door by midnight. His ride lives across the street. Cam just got off work. I said okay for him to stay at Mike's. Grif is asleep on the couch. Jack is asleep in the pack n play. I think they both might be coming down with a cold. A lot of sneezing, scratchy coughs going on tonight.

I tried playing video games to distract myself from my anxiety but it isn't working. Nor did a bath or watching design shows on HGTV. I haven't had too much caffine, lol. Maybe a book will work. Jack is crying. Of course, it is almost 11, now is a perfect time to wake up. NOT! Chris won't be here til sunup. Holiday weekend is busy at work.

Rambling to myself....


I want to replace some of my furniture. I want to gradually replace all the lighter oak/maple pieces that I inherited with ebony or cherry pieces. I want more contempory/tropical{think poly not hawaii}/asian look. I know most the pieces I am thinking of replacing were my grandmothers but they all need serious refinishing. They all are incredibly HEAVY. They end up just being used to hide tons and tons of stuff that I end up forgetting about. I want to get rid of all that STUFF. I am tired of all the clutter. My mom will be annoyed. I can't worry about that. She is getting rid of 2/3 of her stuff to move into a casita my sis is building her so who is she to talk? My grandma will forgive me. I can't do the refininishing work. Not appropriate for an apt, and it would ruin a rental garage. Besides they all warping from living in the desert for so long now living in the tropics and they don't close properly anymore. There are 2 dressers, 2 night stands, desk, book shelf, tv cabinet, filing cabinet, 4 super-low 2 drawer dressers. I will take the asian drawer pulls off and put them onto something else.

Want to keep: tv cabinet- but maybe use it as a game cabinet instead once we replace the tv in it. We have a seriously 2nd hand tv in it. A big fat sq thing that has a wrinkle through the screen. When it dies we are getting a flat screen skinny thing to replace it. Which may or may not fit into the cabinet. The cabinet was my dads and their flat screen was a tad too wide for it. It is a Pier 1 piece in a cherry stain with rattan accents, asian hardware.

Lean to/ladder type book cases- I got them at Target and I love them. The skinny shelves are perfect for paper backs, the wider boottom ones for craft books. The ones in the middle for everything else. I have 2 but really could use one more. Chocolate stain.

Couches-love them. I will be the first to admit they are COLD and you stick to them if you sit on them too long. Leather is perfect to keep clean but not the coziest. Keeping them clean wins out. lol They still look new after 3 years. I love the shade of red we got.

Rattan/brushed nickle queen head board/footboard- I am so torn on this. I LOVE it. I however kinda want a king bed. I will not get rid of the set. I can pass it onto Riley or save it for a guest room eventually. I think I want a platform bed for us. Low. I know what I want but it isn't the easiest thing to find in real life. I would like hanging nightstands and hanging wall sconces to streamline the room. A low 6 drawer dresser for us to share would be ideal. I love footboards as they keep the blankets on the bed, BUT it is also very hard to position a tv somewhere so you can see over the footboard or the person laying in bed with you. I definately want an ebony set if I am replacing it.

Everything else-live with or without. I do appreciate my kitchen table is unique. An Adams family meets Munsters concoction but it is not made for a family of 6. If we stay near by Cam may or may not be living here, but he will still be by for dinenr plus any friends that come over or family. I hate eatting in shifts. I would LOVE a huge square wooden table that seats 8. Or one of those Asain round tables with the lazy susan built in, inlaid mother-of-pearl. (okay the Asain ones only if we had a formal dining room)

I saw a saw horse type cherry/ebony table somewhere as a computer desk. I loved it although I wish it had a place to hide the CPU and printer. It had a keyboard drawer. Still searching on this.

Coffee/end tables. Mine are tooo big. The coffee table is as big as my couches. I currently have a Thomas train set up on it. lol. We refinished them 3 years ago and they are the sturdiest things ever BUT they are heavy, bulky and I have outgrown the look. I would like 2 cubes to store record albulms. Or maybe I should just burn all the albulms to disks instead. (I like my records...will have to think about this) We are thinking a foot stool/coffee table with hidden storage for to store throw blankets.

To put tv on... I am thinking we either do a wall mounted tv with built in dvd player and a console tower OR we get a rectangle console type thing to set the tv on with glass sliding doors to keep the reciver, dvd, and eventual dvr player dust free and kid safe. :D .

Curio cabinets. I bought these second hand. Shoot other than my 2 bookcases and couches everything I own is used. I like the fact they store a lot of things. I like the tops have glass doors so all my breakables are away from the cats/kids BUT it is smoked glass and you don't see in very well. The shelves are at fixed height and my stuff is small and there is a ton of wasted space. Honestly I might as well be using closets for all the good these do. One of the cabinets houses my computer but the cpu doesn't fit and the other my scrapbooks/cookbooks. Another bookcase would work just as well.

Okay...those are my thoughts on my stuff right now. I am sure I will have other thoughts as I clean up today. The clutter is driving me insane! Spring must be coming yet, I am so sure summer is still here according to the thermometer. lol

Yep, lots of planning and not a dime to purchase any of it with. roflmao I think when I put in my resume to Ethan Allen, the redocating bug bit me hard. I will preobably get rid of most of my rejects when we move even if we don't have replacements. Need to find a consignment shop. Too many matching pieces just to give away.

I CAN NOT believe my baby is 18 today!

Labor was so difficult with him. I had him in a birthing center. We were poor and I had no health insurance as I got pg before we got married. {pre existing condition} I didn't care much for hospitals anyways. People die there, not start off there. I had a difficult pg. High blood pressure, swelling, all those toxiema warning signs. Bed rest for 3 months. Gained 60 pounds. I was 20 and miserable. Anyways, my water broke at 4 am. I was 10 days LATE. I had no ultrasounds this entire pregnancy. We went to the birthing center right away. I ended up not being able to walk for very long as I had to be hooked up to all those moniters. I wouldn't finish dialating and that stressed me out. I had a few shots of demeral but it really did nothing for the back labor. Anyways, finally time to push and I pushed for 4 hours!!!!! She finally snipped me a bit and pulled him out as he was in distress. He got wrapped up and raced across the street to the hospital.

I was not staying there if my baby wasn't with me. I had no DOUBT he was a boy. Knew it all along. Anyways, I rememeber blacking out when I got up to go potty. I sat on the potty and the world went black. I was awake but couldn't see or hear. Scariest thing EVER. Too much blood lost too soon. It still didn't slow me down. I collected myself and got dressed and went across the street. By the time I got there, he was in no danger but his blood sugar was too low. They sent me home to sleep. The next morning I came back and he was severely jaundiced. He didn't get to come home for a few days. This of course did NOTHING to help me get him started on a good nursing schedule/habit.

As first babies go, he was a pretty good baby. Yes we had a few months when he would not go to sleep unless he fell asleep in the car or stroller. We wasted quite a bit of gas with him. He is DEFINATELY opinionated. He believes in personal freedom to the highest degree. He reminds me so much of his daddy. I sure wish he was around to celebrate today. Although Cameron has his own agenda today and it has NOTHING to do with me. How can I be old enough to have an adult????

Well, I got a job offer. But not enough $ or hours. Not even a job I could work around Chris's schedule. Back to the drawing board. I will go apply at Florist's next week, V-D is not a day to search for a flower job. roflmao Tomorrow will be a retail job search. I am sure something will turn up. Just gotta think a bit out of the box.

If it is one thing I have failed at miserably is teaching my family members self control and patience. They get an idea in their head and they have to act on it immidately! It is enough to drive a person BATTY! When did we become such a materialistic family? Why do we need something RIGHT this second. I tink I am going to figure out how we can implement a 14-21 day rule on non essential purchases. Maybe write it down on a piece of paper, date it. Wait 14-21 days til we can go get it. True a certain family memember turns 18 on Friday but do we have to order something and pay extra to get it here BEFORE his birthday? I don't care if it is him paying extra. I hate to be wasteful. Shoot, I hate paying for shipping. I did tell him I would buy him clothes for his birthday. Maybe it is easier just to put in a cc # and get delivery than listening him to beg, whine and plead to get his way. I am gonna be so glad when his birthday is OVER!

Can you believe my baby will be 18 on Friday? I can't believe we made it without killing each other. lol Actually I am just in a b*tching mood from the rain. It is getting to all of us. He has been behaving wonderfully considering everything we have been through. I have no REAL complaints. Just wish all the boys would get out of the me-me-me stage. He origionally said I didn't have to get him anything as we were broke. I said no, I will get you something. Now that he knows that, he won't shut up about it. He keeps texting me. I finally told him I was busy talking to someone about a job. Which was true but at the same time, I hate text msging sometimes. I get no peace at all these days! I shouldn't have to hear from them from 8am-3. lol